大半夜的干嘛突然更新？
除了有一部分是因為睡不著之外，另一個說法是因為衝勁。
好希望在面對報告、考試以及小說的時候，我也可以這麼說。
現在還是暑假，很明顯的，自己沒在幹什麼事，除了寫作、下廚、以及反省？
向誰反省？對像是我腦中的小天使！
反省自己這二十年來有什麼成就、什麼展望；反省自己對未來有什麼打算、什麼結論；反省自己暑假的計劃做到了哪幾項；反省自己日夜顛倒的主因是什麼；反省自己待人處事有什麼缺陷；反省自己為什麼跟別人比較時總是那麼自卑！
唉，實在想了好多，當你一個人的時候。
不知道今天怎麼補眠……
So maybe there is a question
Why the suddenly update in the middle of the night?
Well, partly because of insomnia, and that of a sudden impulse.
How I wish I could say the same for my reports, my exams and my novels.
It's in the middle of summer vacation, apparently I'm not doing much besides writing, cooking, and confessing.
Confessing to what? To the little angel inside my head!
Confess about, throughout these twenty years, what achievements have I made, what aspirations do I have; Confess about, for the future, what plans do I have, what conclusions have I made; Confess about the many goals I have planned for the summer and how many were written off; Confess about the reversal of day and night routines and the main reason why; Confess about the drawbacks I have in socializing; Confess about why the hell it is that, when comparing with others, I feel so self-abased!
Yes, there's a lot going on in my mind, when one is alone in the apartment.
I wonder how I am to get any sleep today...
A bunny's behind view. I feel its loneliness...
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