Saturday, September 22, 2012

張芸京新專輯《小女孩》之非專業の樂評/純粹の碎碎念


論西洋文學,特指希臘的戲劇史,悲劇比戲劇更具有文學價值,因為形成它的元素更可以反映出當代的生活與價值觀,帶有諷刺意味地延伸到現代的觀點與思想模式,並作出兩個時代的比較。
論張芸京的歌,詮釋得最到位、最好聽的,總是悲歌。因為它們觸動了人類的情感,歌詞再加上京式唱腔帶領人們去思考生活,比起快歌更具有實在感。


小女孩

第一首已經不是第一次聽了。比起看MV,比較喜歡純粹的聽歌。是個人覺得MV沒重點嗎?可能是因為有了MV,剝削了可以有的想像空間。其實小女孩該是什麼形象?長髮?裙子?幼稚?天真?柔弱?彩虹?鋼琴?玩偶?還有一大堆與性別差異有連貫的字眼…… 這些名詞也不就是從一個框架中拿出來的嗎?可以不要那個框架嗎?
可以說這首歌是整個專輯裡較正面歡樂的歌曲。第一次在電台聽到她唱的時候,刮目相看,是張芸京的聲音顛覆了大家對歌名的質疑。她的唱法是一種獨特的甜美、不膩、不是在做性別。相信如果把歌名歌詞改成「小男孩」也可以很順利地唱下去吧。
張芸京可以並願意唱這樣命名的一首歌,對她來說是跨了一大步。在最淺白的層面,或許會有人認為這首歌當主打是為了要大肆地向大家宣布她是女生。如果想達到這個目的其實不會大費周章。想了解的人會了解,不想知道的人也不會管。
是因為聽了這首歌之後,我把轉型理論收回來了。忠於自己的阿京,不會隨隨便便就轉型。

喘息

       第一次聽這首歌是412在公關河岸留言的迷你售票演唱會,在這之前真的很少活動。她沉寂的這段日子,就是讓自己有喘息的空間。
       那晚聽她演唱這首歌,我當場留下了幾滴眼淚,也是那個時候決定遠遠關心就好。把關於他的事情慢慢地放下,自己不要那麼執著,她的人生她的路她自己決定自己走,不再因為她而編一堆只讓自己陶醉並盲目相信的假象。
       這首歌的意境較為亢奮,好比如走過了黑暗終於見到光明。山窮水盡疑無路,柳暗花明又一村。阿京感覺是這樣吧。畢竟低潮期的一點一滴只有她自己清楚。
歌詞寫的當然很棒,但當大家沉浸在優美的歌聲與氣氛當中或許很少會嘗試去領略歌詞中的暗喻。當然,找到人生的新方向是值得恭賀恭喜,然而人生的時間隧道是沒辦法一刀砍下去。有些不堪回首的過去,還是沒辦法丟棄,儘管這首歌寫得多麼理想型;每時每刻的自己一直都是自己,沒有什麼原本可言,儘管這首歌寫得多有哲學性。
還是實在一點,不要自欺欺人。不是「以前的我」與「現在的我」這麼分清楚界限,而是「以前我會怎樣怎樣」和「現在我反而怎樣怎樣」之間建個橋樑、溝通、矯正、反省、接納。在我們追求目標的過程中疲累不堪的時候,聽這首歌,讓自己喘息一下。休息是為了走更遠的路。Don’t lose sight.

萊特兄弟

       這首歌的前奏加了電音的元素,但一方面又把我帶到萊特兄弟發明飛機那歷史性的年代。隨著整首歌曲的播放,我可以想像張芸京她本人在駕駛飛機……
       很像在嗆聲呢,對象就是那些看不起她/看不好她的紫烏鴉。其實人們憑什麼說對方在發白日夢?就憑自己的主觀認知是不可能認定一個人的勝敗,因為這樣也只是用自己的價值觀來評量自己,什麼都還沒開始就已經將自己受限了。
       這世界太多夢都會被擊落,就比如準備踏入社會的大學生被央求畢業之後好好按部就班、腳踏實地當個薪水穩定的上班族就好了,不要去想什麼作家夢、明星夢、環遊世界夢。現實的逼迫是真的,不可能實現 是假的。如果當時萊特兄弟因為身邊人的冷嘲熱諷的放棄的話,我們現在哪來的飛機?
       張芸京也這樣啊。
       這首歌的歌詞比較簡單,曲風簡單,歌曲朗朗上口,字少當然是其中一個原因。
       要實現夢想,當然要先醒過來。可是要有夢想,當然要先做夢。
       執著,看你用在什麼地方。

我沒有瘋

       最具爭議性的一首歌,之前因為知道作曲人/作詞人的身份之後,全城有少許的動搖,甚至因為這個超瞎的理由而選擇不聽這首歌。
       可是這首歌很讚耶!它揭開了人們歇斯底里的一面卻根本不難聽,反而會無形中釋放出聽歌者的壓力。我總是在上學的路途中,不管是在走路、等公車、乘公車,隨機播放的音樂盒一播出這首歌,很難不對著口型跟著唱(要真的唱出來就只是留在家裡唱)。
       這首歌的「我」聽起來很清楚自己內心的狀況。她承認自己難過、脆弱,即使旁人認為她一定是失去理智了,但她知道她在做什麼,然後坦白地說、坦白地面對。神經質的唱法唱出主角的存在感,揮灑了滿天滿地的搖滾精神。面對感情問題,或什麼其他的,我們也該這樣吧,畢竟自己的事是不可能嚴重到像世界末日,沒有什麼事是解決不了,不是沒有了誰我們便活不下去。
       拿到這專輯前後,我還是找不到激動。我沒有瘋。

你走了 我往前

       生命像一個旅途,我們一同搭上了車,經過的每一個車站,有人上車,有人下車;你身邊認識的,就算是親戚朋友也不會一直陪著你,甚至他們幾時下車你也不清楚。每個人有每個人的故事,不會一直陪著你,所以就算他們走了,我們還是要繼續往前。
       歌曲的前奏第一個讓我想到的畫面是,有個人走上階梯,不知道是前進還是離開。鞋子是白色的,褲子也是。其實聽起來真像一個分手歌,可是就這麼簡單/既定嗎?撇開男女之情,只要是跟誰離開都要說再見吧。
       可是這首歌的主角,雖然心是有裂痕的,但她還是讓悲傷/遺憾存留在回憶中。沒有稀里嘩啦的哭到半死,沒有試著挽留而糾纏不放,沒有很頑固的無法接受,只是很平靜的goodbye.
       如果有一天她不在樂壇了,你會往前嗎?

對不起

       當然不是第一次聽啦。看歌名就知道是一首藉以道歉的歌。聽了整首,感覺不是唱這首歌的人在說對不起,只是在於領悟了感情中的不適合。歌詞盡是灰暗的顏色,很像主角被鎖進一個黑暗的世界。
如果這首歌是一幅畫,我把它想像成一座陰森,一個騎士騎著一匹俊馬正穿越這個遍地樹葉的叢林,落葉隨著風與速度飛散起來。她是在逃避,還是想找一個地方整理自己的心情?
       有時候道歉不是承認自己犯了錯,而是願意放下身段去維持一個關係。就很像我們時不時地會說「不好意思」或「麻煩你……」都只是出於禮貌與對他者的尊重。
       其實這首歌多了幾分無奈感。它認定了愛就是這樣,事實就想撞牆一樣的痛,就像說變就變的天氣,對方突然之間拋下一句話而當事者被期待立刻去接受。因為一時想不通就會質疑這到底是不是愛情/真相,會覺得奇怪。沒有誰對,沒有誰錯,只是自己先道歉,先離開。
       它很平淡安靜地開始,也很平淡安靜地結束;她揮一揮衣袖,留下歌曲的雲彩。

夜光

       有個京迷提醒我這首歌會很驚艷。其實在還沒聽之前在網路上也看到許多京迷大力地推薦這首歌……(應該說是大力地推薦整張專輯)
       前奏的確帶有一種在夜晚行動的感覺。的確會很驚艷,因為這樣的曲風有別於張芸京以往的嘗試,一點一點鋪成地把整首歌帶進高潮。一下子讓我聯想到街舞,一下子又讓我聯想到舞台劇。燈光一下,只有她站在舞台的中間,全世界為她鼓掌。舞台旋轉著,讓我們可以在各種角度看見她,從她的細緻表情到她精緻的肢體語言。
       到了最後,歌聲漸漸退去,留下來的是樂器的彈奏,非常特別的編曲,非常有力量的一首歌,一個驚呼連連又很成功的嘗試。
       本來藏在雲朵後面的滿月也露面了。是的,在漫長,都會天亮。
       這首歌可以出英文版嗎?我覺得很有潛力。
      
痛也愛你

       歌名立刻讓我想起她第一張專輯中「偏愛」這首歌裡的一句歌詞:痛也很愉快。
       這首歌似乎在述說一份無條件的愛,但仔細地想,「無條件」用得太偉大了,應該說即使對方遭遇了不測或有一些不足的地方,愛著他/她的人即便心中再折騰,再不認同,還是會嘗試去接受、去愛。
       其實,很像這兩年我對她的想法,一變再變,還經歷了反反复复的憂鬱糾結,到現在放下了所有心結,真真實實的「痛也愛你」。並不是她不好,只是我接受了,她不可能依照我的想法、我的期望去出專輯、做造型。不管她的決定怎樣,或者是不是公司的安排,我為自己準備最好的理想與最壞的想像,還是會跟著她走,只是遠遠關心就好。
       在第一專輯中,我「偏愛」張芸京,那是真的是痴痴的愛,容易為她抓狂,特別被她帥氣的外表吸引;在第二張專輯中,我不會對她說「我不愛你了」,還是很固執地抓著她不放,又剛好第一次在台灣追她,好幾次心臟都跳出來,每次提到她都像個瘋子似的滔滔不絕地說。很快的,我身邊的人誰都懂我喜歡張芸京;在等待已久的第三章專輯,反而冷靜代替了激動。公司的手段還是一樣,但這次每張版本只買一張,財力有限,那份心在就夠了,而且在台灣這兩年也經歷了那麼多風雨,所以,我「痛也愛你」,我有你有我。

小秘密

       這歌名真沒梗,誰叫826那天還是「小秘密音樂會」,你還否認「小秘密」這首歌。
       真像晚安曲,聽了好有安全感。It’s like telling me everything will be alright, and I know so. 像「小王子」一樣,會安撫不定的人心。像「小王子」一樣,都提到星星/行星。 (Note: 摘下最遠的星星 & 小行星 摘給你)
       應該不會變成主打啦(直覺在說話),我也想不到什麼畫面。
       張芸京又一個創作,挺激勵的一首歌,不同於「喘息」的澎湃,記憶點也不強烈吧,只是很輕鬆的一首曲子。
       我不解的是,小秘密在這首歌中代表了什麼?是「我」和「你」之間的連接點嗎?
       想念的心依然沒變 等你的心依然沒變 真是說出了我的心聲。

若無其事

       最後一首歌了。我覺得整個專輯歌曲的排列很不錯。從一開始的「小女孩」,到中間的「夜光」,到「若無其事」,從爽朗、亢奮到平靜…… 若無其事地結尾了,似乎在說:期待下一張專輯的我。
       人與人之間,一旦熟了,真的很容易就把對方的作為視為理所當然,久而久之變成若無其事。我們說謝謝,對陌生人/不熟的人比對親近的親戚朋友還多。說好聽一點,就是一切盡在不言中,反正你我都知道。可是有些事情不能到最後關頭在說出來,很大可能到時都來不及了,挽不回來了。是在說樹欲靜而風不止嗎?
       我看見一個高塔,住在裡面最高處的是一位姑娘,向著窗外高歌一曲。一群侯鳥飛過,風景真優美。她的頭髮在風中飄呀飄,載走了她的心事。高塔是在象徵她孤單了好久吧。
       閉起眼睛唱完/聽完整首歌,結束之後發覺雙眸在泛淚。想起誰了吧?不要把人與人之間的感情當作若無其事,你會認識到他//它是一種緣分,不管你相不相信上帝的安排。生命中遇到的每個人,都值得寫儘自己的故事裡。
       寒假要回馬,我不會把那兩隻兔子當作若無其事。

新專輯歌曲以喜好憑直覺排名:
1 夜光
2 痛也愛你
3 我沒有瘋
4 你走了我往前
5若無其事
6 喘息
7 小女孩
8 對不起
小秘密
10 萊特兄弟


Saturday, August 11, 2012

The Hunger Games: Between the Book and the Movie

Okay, so I'm a bit slow with popular trends. I went to watch the movie before deciding to buy the set of books, and after I bought them, it's a month or two later that I start flipping the pages.

The movie's exciting. It's like a mix-up of all genres available, and above everything that's obviously made-up, it's so much in tune with the dog-eat-dog world we live in today. Well, they might have exaggerated on the differences between the classes (ie. the Capitol and the Districts); or maybe they didn't. Maybe they just showed us what we haven't been seeing, what we think that didn't exist.

So I picked up Book 1 and I must admit, the first few pages seemed boring to me. Perhaps it was because I had been expecting more from Suzanne Collins; judging from the movie I watched with my friends, I thought her book should be another Harry Potter: deep and complicated and extremely detailed. Well, that was kinda my fault. What I've learnt from a year of reading and conversation classes with Dr. Don Gilleland is that each writer has his or her own unique writing style. Of which the lesson didn't occur to me until halfway through the book, and by then I was already sucked into the world of Panem.

What's different about the movie and the book is that the movie shows us stuff; the book tells us the story. Katniss' story. Well, writing in first person helps. Although both centers around the heroine, the movie being an adaptation of the novel, I was given separate perspectives of the character. The movie pictures the sixteen-year-old as strong, tough, independent and most of the time fearless. In the book, readers are welcomed to her gentle side, her sisterly love, her responsibility to family (no matter how many times she say about how much she hates her mother), and get in touch with her inner self, all the insecurity, the worries, the contradiction going on in her mind, the adrenaline rush, and every bit of hurt and pain she received in the Games. I would like to take note here about her transfer from her District 12 to the Capitol. In the movie, she seems to be in absolute denial for a certain period of time. Her attitude kinda stinks. And real bad, compared to the book, which showcased her as quickly adjusting to her environment. The conflict between Katniss and Haymitch is there in both material, and while the relationship between Katniss and Effie in the movie is considerably distant, the book shows them as relatively indifferent. By the way, I didn't take note of Effie's name until I read the book. In the movie, I just remember her as the annoying-lady-in-pink. Turns out she's not that terrible in the book. Sure, a bit lost about using her words, but I just might like her. 

The movie shows us everything in general, but the book takes us in through the eyes and mind of Katniss Everdeen. So I believed the filmmakers added some extras of their own. Like at the beginning of the movie, Prim was screaming in bed like crazy as the day of the reaping draws near, but there was nothing in the book. Prim was calmer than she appeared to be in the movies. She didn't make a scene like she did in the movie when her name was called out at the assembly. And when Katniss volunteered as tribute there wasn't any fuss, no complications, no struggle with the officials. Gale just took Prim away with little argument and Katniss just walked on stage. The movie went a little dramatic with this part. But that's good, in a way. Makes things go a bit more lively. So, Prim was an insecure little girl who's even afraid of her own shadow, but from what Katniss says in the book, Prim's alright as long as she has her goat Lady and, as a bonus, she knows some stuff about herb and medicine from helping their mother with the patients that come every once in a while. Katniss ditched these times to go hunting, running away from the fear of looking at people in deadly situations with little chance of recovery.

Most of everything else in the movie remains loyal to the original, especially the trials in the arena, and when Katniss' feelings about Peeta kicks in. Before we go any further, I would like to point out that Katniss wasn't sure what to do about the relationship between herself and Gale. She didn't refer to him as her boyfriend (which I assumed he was before I read the book) but more like hunting partners looking out for one another's family. So when Peeta got into the picture, she got even more confused and tried to put the two of them on two different pages, knowing that she had to face it when they return home, although she had been juggling with the probabilities of survival. In the book, she keeps thinking about whichever champion that emerged in the finale would bring more benefit to Prim and their mother back home. First, she was considering either she or Peeta survive will do, hoping that the latter won't be killed by her own hand, but when the odds are slowly leaving her, she was hoping that Thresh from District 11 could win, after Rue's death and his letting her go just once. I think it was overcome by respect, or the idea that Katniss didn't want to keep owing him. Oh, about after Rue's death, there was an addition in the movie not mentioned in the book. A riot broke out in District 11 right after Katniss surrounded Rue's body in flowers and left her, and as she did, she put three middle fingers to her lips and then raised them high for the viewers to see. It is an indirect sigh of rebellion. That and the thing about the flowers. I made a personal comment that the person who started the riot (as pictured in the movie) could be Rue's family.

Another thing that leaves me thinking about the aftermath of Katniss' and Peeta's victory is a short scene in the movie that shows us the chief Gamemaker having some time alone with a bowl of berries. Obviously he was pushed into it and worked it out very quickly that it was the Mayor's decision to get rid of him. Those aren't just ordinary berries. Those were the berries in the arena which Peeta had nearly taken and which both he and Katniss had planned to take at the end of the Games as a showcase of rebelliousness against the Capitol. What was the name? Nightlock? Berries that will have you dead before they even reach your stomach. Right. The book didn't mention a thing about the chief Gamemaker's execution. Maybe it does in the second book, which I haven't started reading. 

The book is a good few hundred pages, not as thick as the Harry Potter series can go to, and it makes much lighter reading. It was difficult to make peace with the book during the first half of the reading, when I was still heavily influenced by what the movie has showed me. Last night, I took off from where I left at Page 196... and zoomed all the way to the end of book 1. That took a few hours, but I just couldn't put it down! I was reading about their win just as the rays of the sun began to seep in through the windows!


Sunday, August 5, 2012

Kink 糾結


So let's talk about Christianity.
Note: Really! No offence! Request for personal safety after this.



It's possible that, because of where I come from, I might have a fear of religion.
Either that or the fear of being targeted just because of not believing in one.
Top that with the news we saw, see, and will still be seeing about the relationship between a particularly strong nation and the Middle-East. Oh, let's not forget the terrorist bombings and the war and what-not.

And the part where extreme devotees like to preach whenever, wherever and whomever they meet really chills me to the bones.
I guess those are roughly where the fear comes from.
Scratch that. Fear might not be the right word. I know religion is for the good intentions of mankind.

But an overdose of its teachings would really hurt.
Especially when believers take them out of context.

Especially when believers take a stand for their opinions under the name of God (whichever God), of which such behavior usually leads to hate crimes. For example, "God hates _______ so we must banish ________". 
Or that when discussing a social issue, there is the excuse that "It's unnatural because God says so, so we shouldn't do it." FYI, birth control is unnatural, so what else do you have to say?
Or the heated debate between or among different religions who insist that their God is the only God. Personally, I think this is a waste of time and energy and brain cells, because has anyone heard of freedom of religion? Or in a simpler sense, "you don't bug me, I don't bug you?" 

This headache about the study and controversy of religion within myself started when:
1 The christening of my idol about two years ago.
2 My approach to literature of the Bible during my first year of double major in English.

So each time the name Jesus is pronounced (by whomever), I get a kink. 


The teachings I read in the Bible are interesting; the posts shared by my idol are are so true and meaningful as well. Maybe throughout the year, I have been thrown at too many times by the knowhow of Christianity, either in English or Sociology classes, from time to time that I might have gotten a little sick of it. I know my professors do it for the sake of knowledge and appreciation, and representatives of the Christian community do it out of love, but personally I have had enough of this approach. The mentioning of Jesus everywhere really got on my nerves, (OS: As if He is the only right path and that all else are fools) and during one session of Classical Selections of Art I nearly hit the table when the professor mentioned Jesus and the Last Judgment. 
And let's not forget Dies Irae!

I also have an unresolved contradiction where, in the Bible, women are subjected to men (because Eve is created from Adam's rib and such). So this sense of gender inequality really fires me up. I'll be glad if someone enlightens me on that.


I used to mingle about God's saying to "be fruitful and multiply", and I used to interpret that as "get married and have children OR ELSE". So that really scared me at some point. Luckily a fellow Christian friend told me that, yes God says so but people can think for themselves! I was relieved. (whew!)

So if people can think for themselves, why do so many just take something from the Bible out of context? And what's with all the hatred still going on out there that just seems irrational is religion is all about love and morals and doing the right thing? And I don't think that just because one has sinned and confessed to the Father means it's okay to repeat the same mistake (and confess again). If so, what's the meaning of confession in the first place???

On a lighter tone, if there really is a God out there, I thank Him. Why? In an unrelated note, for guiding my idol to the light. And for allowing me the chance to get to know Him. But I wouldn't want to get to know Him that much.


There is a particular section in the Bible section of my literature class that struck my attention. St. Augustine's Confessions. I even wrote a report on that, although I don't think the professor commented on that as much as my other one. It's interesting the way he relates himself to God and even though he only realizes God after his twenties (or was it his thirties?) he can still make connections between God and his early life. Especially the pear tree incident, where he accounts in great detail about sin. He does it not because of the pear (for it is not that special) and not because of his friends but because of the stealing itself. It was exciting for him, because it is wrong and he couldn't resist the temptation.
And there are several other episodes in St. Augustine's lifetime written in black and white that are just as interesting, but the one part where he gets to know God after flipping to a particular page of the Bible and assuming that this is what God wants him to know, leaves me with question marks.

Has anyone heard of coincidences? I wouldn't pinpoint that everything that happens to someone is because God did it, because people can get lucky and unlucky, or that one really worked hard (or not) to gain (or lose) something. So before thanking God after surviving an accident, why not thank the one who saved you first?

I don't believe in any god, but I don't doubt what everyone else believes. There's no proven right or wrong. In fact, if the only one in power of judging is God (whichever God), who are we to judge?

Oh yeah, please don't point a finger at atheists, who are minorities. What did we do, besides not believing?

A "brother" of mine said that God is interested in me, for He has been passing by me too many times for so long. And you know what, I think so too.

Am I being hypocritical in this post?

Again, I ask for my safety.

Impulse 衝勁

或許會想問
大半夜的干嘛突然更新?
除了有一部分是因為睡不著之外,另一個說法是因為衝勁。
好希望在面對報告、考試以及小說的時候,我也可以這麼說。
現在還是暑假,很明顯的,自己沒在幹什麼事,除了寫作、下廚、以及反省?
向誰反省?對像是我腦中的小天使!
反省自己這二十年來有什麼成就、什麼展望;反省自己對未來有什麼打算、什麼結論;反省自己暑假的計劃做到了哪幾項;反省自己日夜顛倒的主因是什麼;反省自己待人處事有什麼缺陷;反省自己為什麼跟別人比較時總是那麼自卑!

唉,實在想了好多,當你一個人的時候。

不知道今天怎麼補眠……

So maybe there is a question
Why the suddenly update in the middle of the night?
Well, partly because of insomnia, and that of a sudden impulse.
How I wish I could say the same for my reports, my exams and my novels.
It's in the middle of summer vacation, apparently I'm not doing much besides writing, cooking, and confessing.
Confessing to what? To the little angel inside my head!
Confess about, throughout these twenty years, what achievements have I made, what aspirations do I have; Confess about, for the future, what plans do I have, what conclusions have I made; Confess about the many goals I have planned for the summer and how many were written off; Confess about the reversal of day and night routines and the main reason why; Confess about the drawbacks I have in socializing; Confess about why the hell it is that, when comparing with others, I feel so self-abased!

Yes, there's a lot going on in my mind, when one is alone in the apartment.

I wonder how I am to get any sleep today...


A bunny's behind view. I feel its loneliness...

Revival 重生

復活了!

跨別兩年多了,忽然萌生重新開啟的想法。

這個決定來自於幾個動機:

1 媽前幾天說不要一直在FB上更新日常生活的狀況,會有少部分的人別有心機。至某個程度我認同。反正部落格這東西在FB、微博、Google+的肆虐下已經不怎麼夯了。但,會看的人自然是那些在乎你的人。與其把自己的心情隨隨便便攤在陽光下,不如放在一個隱秘的地方,想知道的人自然會自己去找。
2 FB可以寫的長度有限,我也不想時常放在網誌上。更何況我的網誌也挺亂的。重溫這裡的環境,我可以把我的文章設定成好幾個文件夾,方便搜尋方便整理。
3 記載我的日常生活從瑣碎至重大的事件,只要能擠出時間可以大寫特寫。FB能寫多少,除非你一po再po,但這樣的話會有一部份的人覺得你囉嗦、麻煩又無聊。
4 把自己冗長的想法記下來,這下或許可以減少我每晚東想西想以致難眠的問題。
5 偶爾來個雙語註解,刺激又好玩(又可開拓雙元市場)!

不知道還有幾位朋友還在使用部落格,不知道有幾位朋友還在關注彼此的部落格。So, 重新開始吧!

It's alive!
It's been over two years and suddenly I'm thinking about restarting this blog.
This decision comes from several motives:
1 A few days back Mum ranted about my constant updates on FB about my daily life and I was told not to do so, because there will be a handful of people with ill intentions. To a certain extent I agree. Anyway this blog thing, under the invasion of FB, WeiBo, and Google+, it's not exactly very hot right now. However, those who want to look at it are those keeping you at heart. Rather then casually spreading one's feelings under the sun for all to know, why not put them in a secret shelter, where those who wanna know will lead themselves.
2 The length one can write in FB is quite limited, and I don't want to constantly write in notes. Moreover, my stash in that place is really messy. Returning to this environment, I can set up my articles into many different folders, great for searching and managing.
3 To jot down my everyday life, from those of non-importance to really really big ones, as long as I can squeeze some time to write all I want. How much can you write in FB, unless you update again and again, but this will let a handful of people think that you are long-winded, troublesome and dull.
4 Putting down my extended thoughts might reduce the problem of my non-stop pondering almost every night which usually results in sleep difficulties.
5 Put it in bi-lingual once in a while (like this article). Exciting and fun (and opens up to a dual market)!

I don't know how many friends are still using blogs, and I don't know how many friends are still following one another through them. So, let's start over!



Random pic of Jing

Thursday, December 3, 2009

《蔚蓝之空》第一话•第四幕

以学生的角度来看,真的是好不容易才放学了。
同学们一窝蜂的冲出教室。追潮流的三五成群的约好出街抢购,书生味十足的特优生准时得到图书馆开个温书会,就连那些宅男宅女都结对去看漫画打电动了。
还有三个乐队成员一起到小绯家练团。团长阿京欲把演出的五项曲目决定好。话虽如此,一首还在制作过程中,两首归乐团的原创歌曲,一首是由学生投票率最高的排行榜流行歌曲而且必在演出前三个礼拜才出炉的成绩,还有一首是夏季演出的主题曲并还未由主办单位揭晓。
所以说,乐团目前为止只需要准备两首曲子,但热爱音乐与运动的阿京却为了要呈现完美的演出而不罢休。滑板可以延迟至练团过后才溜个爽快。
三个人之中,两个留着滑板,一个骑着脚车。反正闲着没事,就慢慢走到朋友家做客。三个人之中,一个男生,却有两个穿长裤的。反正阿京自己觉得爽就好了。
小绯的家……是个超级大的独立式洋房,是隔壁阿京家的两三倍。
小绯拿出一串钥匙先把大门开了,一伙人踏进庭院里。他在把家里的门用另一个钥匙大开,校鞋撇在一旁,进到里面时却不吭一声。小绯的父母一个礼拜前已经飞外国谈生意了,不到两个月不回来。这件事他已经跟团员说过了。
小队伍进入小绯屋子地下室的私人练团室。麻雀虽小,五脏俱全。小绯跟小兰一转身把乐器以及周边的设备装置好,回头看,阿京又不知不觉几时换上了另一套黑白摇滚风服装,在为她的宝贝电吉他插电。
“瓦靠!也没必要这么快吧?夸张叻!”小绯惊讶地赞叹。
算了,反正阿京就是这样的无解……
这个乐团暂名为“比将”,才成立不久,一两个月之多。阿京是主唱兼吉他手,小绯是电琴手,小兰负责打鼓。三人都对音乐很有想法,虽然作词作曲还算是小本事。
“好,咱们要尽快决定演出的歌曲,况且我们的参演名额已经确定了。暂时有两首要准备。”阿京领导开会。“还有一首可以等着,还没写好。”
“我们的自创曲又不多……”小兰边说着,边检查乐团的笔记。
“不过至少比口水歌还好……”小绯指出。
“那,兰,《用点爱》怎样?”阿京的建议。
“要不然比较high的?”小绯又说。
“要么《雨的力量》?我觉得这两首比较受欢迎啊。”阿京说道。
小兰看着看着仅有一页的自创曲目。“也真的是很少啊。毕竟成立这团不是很久。我看就不要想太多吧。”
“那其它首呢?”小绯问道。
“我觉得蛮多都好黑暗的…… 不配合夏天吧。”
“阿兰说得也对。还是尽快把新歌写好。”阿京说。
“那就这两首?”小绯看起来不可思议的说。
“啊,暂时吧。”小兰回答。
“完了?那干吗需要老远跑到我家这儿讨论这芝麻小事?”
“阿不然!”小兰叹到。“难道你认为我们会谈多久?没时间啊!”
“三个月怎么说没时间?”
“早上还说我打情骂俏…… 练歌啦!我不打算放弃好天气的下午不溜滑板的耶!”阿京的一句话是音乐响起来的开始。不久,笑声、歌声还有乐器的弹奏,有节奏的融在一起,形成一个风格既美妙又摇滚味十足的旋律。
下午四点三十九分五十六秒暂停乐团练习。
下午四点五十二分二十五秒冲出门外,目的地是市中心的滑板场。
因为不想放弃好天气的下午。

《蔚蓝之空》第一话•第三幕

一伙人来到泳池,所谓“天生爱八卦”的女生依旧爱八卦,一些则忙着谈论最近娱乐圈子的帅气男艺人,勤奋的更不错过这机会跟同僚的讨论昨日的家课。
阿京跟小兰走在队伍的后头,感叹着。
见阿京一脸无奈,小兰开口说话:“女生就是女生嘛。”
“不见咱们俩也讨论着同类话题啊。反而我每次谈到NBA篮球赛,班上的那几个就投以我异样的眼光。”
阿京发言论就是这样,咄咄逼人,却逼得恰到好处。小兰直同意:“说得也是……”
到达泳池。
“又不是初一初二的小鬼,你们怎么迟了整十五分钟?”凶悍严厉的教练第一句就吼道,手中拿着点名簿不耐烦地跺着脚。
全班眼光投向阿京。在旁的小兰也耸着肩。两者无奈。
“怎么又是你?很多老师已经提起你了。中学第五年你还是老样子。一点都不像女生……”
“因为我没办法啊。阿兰的话,还可以。”阿京回复道。几个女生暗笑。
“没什么好笑的!”说完,教练弯下身,从脚边的盒子里拿出一袋又一袋的泳装配潜水镜,根据尺码递给准备上课的女学生。“检查,对了就去换衣!快快快!”
就这样,几分钟后……
换好连身泳装的她们在泳池旁列成一队。如果不是阿京催她们动作快点,同班的女生恐怕现在还在更衣室慢条斯理交谈着呢。阿京办事的速度,单从上学的准备功夫就可以断定了。
依教练的指示,跟着点名簿的秩序,叫到名字的就要下水看招,展现个人目前的游泳技术。当阿京的名字被念到时,教练眼前的却是一个穿着普通衬衫加一条夏威夷短裤,在做热身运动的纯中性女生。
“这位,泳装呢?”教练双手叉腰,严格的语气来了。
“穿着啊。”阿京随口回答。
“那你这身装扮算什么?”
阿京停止运动,无辜的眼神对看着教练。“歹势啦,老师。我身材不好,没办法跟其他女生穿到这样。所以只好套上另一件来‘藏身’。”
在旁的小兰如果不忍着的话,应该是笑翻了。
“隔壁那个紫罗兰,你先下水!”教练喝道。接着一个“扑通”,小兰潜在水中继续看好戏。
阿京继续。“老师你看,前面没什么,大腿小腿都很粗,谁愿意看这边来嘛。因为我的关系吧,男生才不敢来偷窥。”
哄堂大笑。事实上,是因为小兰黑带的合气道在恐吓他们。
阿京说得如此爽快,连教练都无言。由始到终,教练自知自己的身材也没好到哪里去。
“废话少说,给我下水去!”
接着又一个“扑通”,阿京很漂亮的蝴蝶式从泳池的一端游到另一端,再游回来,混在群里。
就这样,教练为他们复习一番去年的课程后,高二文班的女生又上完了令老师头痛的一堂课。
回到班上,换回了校服却仍然显得汗流浃背的男生在教室里歇息。几个风扇在天花板上以特大号的速度旋转着。女生肩披着毛巾,多者头发还滴着水珠,陆续的进入教室。阿京还穿着早上换过的长裤子。
“怎样?有被气到吗?”小绯背靠椅子,仰着头,享受着风扇底下的凉快。
“如果你是指教练的话,不出所料,的确是气到了。”小兰在座位上抹着湿透的头发回答说,嘴角露着得意的笑容。
“还真是了得。这种事,阿京最内行。”小绯赞了一句。
“还用说,不然我怎么穿着裤子活着回来?”阿京搞笑到连周围的几个同学都被笑声感染了。在女生们还忙着擦干头发整理外型的当儿,阿京正跷着脚在无聊着,还跟黑白灰三个没事做的男生谈起话来,脑子里想着的是上完英文文学、中国历史、数学微积分等等一系列的科目后放学,一连串活动的行程。
该先去溜滑板爽一下还是练乐团呢?毕竟演出还有三个月,而她还有新歌没写完,不过以前的作品也得加以复习。
谁叫她留着容易打理容易凉干的短发,也不需要跟其他女同学一起烦化妆。不然她哪有多余的几分钟时间锁定接下来的计划?
反正简单就好,不要做作,也不要随波逐流。做自己最爽不过了!

《蔚蓝之空》第一话•第二幕


高二文班吵的吵,静的静,上课前的状况跟学校的其它班级没有不一样的。当小兰跟小绯踏进这间教室时,只见阿京的桌上只有书包,看似不久前被匆匆地抛在桌上,然而座位上却没有它的主人。
“阿京还没好噢……”小兰叹道,逐步到阿京右边的座位坐下。小绯则坐在阿京后边的座位。
也算是特技运动发烧友的阿灰滑过,及时止步。“哦,她啊?一来甩下书包,拿出一捆东西就风速跑出去了。敢问,今天的挑战者是谁?”
“除了星期三穿便服上课,她最爽的一天,平时她都会乖乖穿校裙的啊。当然,只管用于开学的第一个礼拜。过后她就耍宝了。虽然对我们男生来说,不算什么眼福……”擅长滑轮特技的阿白一手跨在阿灰的肩膀上,过来插一脚了。
“以她这种个性,平时只系领带照穿裙子已经算是给校方面子了,虽然只是那几天。四天了,该差不多让老师们见识她的真面目。”第三个人,阿黑也来打岔。
“你们说够了没有?”小兰喊道,口气带有一点被烦透了的感觉。
HOR,大小姐脾气发作了哦?今天谁惹你啊?”称号为小白的同学喝一声。
“还不是你们。”小绯在后边悠闲地检查时间表,说道。“女生要上游泳课。”
“难怪!”三个八卦男生同时说道。
八点的学校终生响起,同学们这才甘愿鱼贯的坐回位子上。才响到第七声,班上的前门被重重的敲了一下。喘着气的阿京说:“及时赶上了!老师还没来噢?”
班上的男生欢呼了起来。只有一些女生看似不顺眼。
“简直是男生嘛!”一个男同学跟阿京合掌起来。
“你果然买了男生校裤!瓦靠!往年你都是穿牛仔裤的耶!”班长阿橙说。
“换个心情~”她回答道。
“我说,阿京,你今天效率怎么慢了?”阿京坐在他前面,小绯说道。
阿京转过身去。“我看,训导主任大概预测到我这几天要开始耍王牌了吧…… 从厕所出来后,一直在躲她呢。好像在玩猫捉老鼠捉迷藏之类的游戏。不过,我已经到安全地带了,可以放心了哦~”说完,吹了一声口哨。
才跷脚跷了不久,体育课的新老师来了。三部曲过后,开始点名。
“这一学期的体育课,男生田径,女生游泳。待会儿男生跟我到操场去,在那里我会分发运动衣。女生就到游泳池,负责老师在那里等待你们。”
班上一片安静。大家不是一副悠闲的样子就是一副无关的表情,大多等待阿京耍招。
“这个…… 芸京,在吗?”
“到!”阿京举手示意。
只见老师盯着点名簿,有点恍然。“教务处这么粗心啊…… 明明是男生……”
这下子,全班男生忍着笑。阿京耸耸肩。
小绯先开炮:“老师,16个男生,17个女生,没错。”
体育老师表情恍然:“可我怎么算也不对啊……”他再算了一次。“男生还是17个。”
“老师,”阿京再次举手。“我是女生。”
哄堂大笑。
老师懊恼。“什么笑话!那你怎么明知故犯穿校裤?”
“我觉得不好笑啊。怎样说,这还是校服。我哪犯规?”
“你的校裙呢?怎么还绑领带?”
“讨厌穿裙子。蝴蝶结很烦。”
“女生就应该穿那样啊!”
“为什么?”阿京终于呛声了。
一秒。五秒。十秒。老师始终哑口无言。
“老师,快十分钟了。”另一个班长小赫指出。
虽然体育老师很明显地,气还未消,但基于时间的关系,只能喝令班上学生立即开始活动。穿着校裤的阿京尾随着一排女生走出教室,不时跟留在班上还未出动的男同学打着胜利的手势。
教室外,小兰对阿京说:“被他说成这样,你认为训导老师会怎样?”
“放心,阿兰。我们双方都习惯了。即使她又出什么奸招企图把我逼退,到时我也只能平常心去应付啊。”
“你还真是玩世不恭。但别高兴得太早,对面还有一位老师等着我们。”小赫插了一脚。
话虽如此,阿京却没什么所谓的。

Thursday, November 26, 2009

《蔚蓝之空》第一话•第一幕

这一切的开始,迷信的紫乌鸦都一口咬定是她自作自受,才会落到如此没有科学根据的下场。可是她却不管这么多,因为不管是男是女都应该是一样的,因为只有她知道—跟站在她身边的家人朋友知道:“是守护神搞出的鬼祸!”

新学年初的一个星期五,当活泼的小学生和烦恼多的初中生都在准备上学的时候,一个懒散的高中二年级学生还不舍得离开被窝里。
直到七点半的闹钟铃声响起,这个学生习惯性的按掉枕边的噪音,三步当两步地跨到厕所,一边刷牙一边梳头发,洗脸一翻,然后再跨到乱糟糟的房间,打开乱糟糟的衣橱取出一套整齐的校服,迫不得已穿上去,脸上展现难堪的表情。扯下妈妈精心为她补上去学校规定的花花蝴蝶结配件后,配在校服前的是个人收藏的一条蓝色领带。她这才满意地站在镜子前暗爽。
七点三十五分,她一刮风似的打开房门,看见初中一的妹妹以即将要敲门的手势站在面前。
“早安!“说完,她轻抚了妹妹的头,把本来是海平线的刘海给弄乱了。小虹很无奈的感叹这样的姐姐。这惯例已经不是第一次了。
“早知不要特地来敲你这个烂门……“说完又很无奈的随着蹦蹦跳跳的姐姐下楼去。
“阿京,早餐要冷了哦!“身穿着睡衣的妈妈在客厅看报纸,听到放爆竹似的下楼脚步声后所传出的叮咛。”小虹做的土司不错,趁热吃更棒的哦!“
对,身为老母的却连简单的早餐都不会做。
“谢啦,阿虹!“阿京随手递过两片土司大口地吞下去,然后才注意到妹妹的发型。“我说,阿虹,你忘了梳头哦!”
拼命重新梳好头发的妹妹感叹道:“老姐,这是你干的好事。你又忘了吗?”
“真的哦?几时?”
小虹心头不发火才怪。
七点四十一分,阿京的手机铃声响起。一曲《改不了》震荡整个饭厅。
嘴里还啃着面包的阿京,脸颊一边夹着手机,双腿一边迅速的冲到鞋架翻出自己的校鞋。“嘿!京在!等下,我就要出门了。”她穿好了校鞋顺手接过放在门边的滑板,‘乓’一声甩开大门,脚下的滑板就飞快地把主人带到家门前的马路,跟挂掉电话的好友小兰以及青梅竹马的小绯聚会。
“迟了一分钟叻!你昨晚干了什么坏事?”爱搞笑的小兰说道。
阿京跟一旁的小绯划了数以彼此之间的“友达拳”,然后跟小兰合掌说:“还不是为了我们的乐团拼命写曲!要不然,我不必赖那半小时的床!”
小兰骑上脚踏车,其余两个踏上滑板,不久三人行一起往学校的方向行。
“即使没熬夜,我看也没差吧。”随后也是溜着滑板的小绯泼冷水。
“少来!”阿京呛声。
“反正夏季演出还有这么久的时间—至少三个月叻!不必这样紧凑吧!”
“嘿,阿绯小鬼!看路啦!给车撞我不管!”
“这句话应该是我对你说叻。”
小兰插话道:“不要一大清早就打情骂俏啦!我在叻!”
“哪有!”两个好朋友一齐抗议。
“算了。”小兰说。他们三人穿过人群拥挤的街上,很多商铺已经开始营业了,家庭主妇陆续的来购物。他们在下岭时以一窝蜂的速度超越偶尔遇到行路的上学伙子,然后跟普通的特技运动爱好者一般,骄傲的迎接清风擦身而过的爽快,不知不觉十个轮子很快地把他们带到理博士高校的大门前了。
“七点五十分!哈!我从起床后,二十分钟就到达学校了!真爽!“
“平常都这样的啊。“小兰指道。她下了脚车,也是习惯性地把她的宝贝推进校园里。“你们跟不跟来阿?“
“来了!”小绯高呼到,一秒后却接到阿京递给他的滑板。
“绯!拜托你了!我先走!”
“喂!你跑去哪里啊?”走在前面的小兰喊道。
“我要换裤子!要不然我整天不爽!”
“你今天哪根筋不对劲啊?是刚才骑到太HIGH了吧。”
“不知道!应该是吧!总之你跟小绯先去寄放那些吧!”说着说着人影越来越小了,直到消失在学生群里。
“我知道裙子是苦了她,也是苦了我,不过没必要嫌弃到这种程度吧。”两个人进到寄放室,小兰对小绯说道。毕竟全校都知道阿京以中性为名,而小兰也是偏中性但不会很特出,因为她留着长发。
“算了啦,我跟她相识了十五年,她这点是改不了的。”小绯把两个滑板寄放好了,然后跟着小兰离开寄放室再次混在陆续到校的学生群中。
“今天的体育课女生要游泳,不知道她又会耍什么花招气死老师……”小兰想着。“她是喜欢游泳,却老是对泳衣有偏见。”
“我们男生呢……”
“你们敢靠近泳池一步,不要怪我的合气道把你们干掉!”
“小兰的男人婆脾气出场了……”
“啊,算了算了。今晚你们一定要来噢!流星雨降临!”
“当然啦!我们老早说好老地方见。不见不散。”
小兰这才流露出满意的眼神。“不过,阿京又要挑战校规了。我看,今天会是开学以来最令人期待的一天吧!”她跟着双手紧扣在头背的小绯,两人带着期待的心情踏入学堂,越过走廊,进入喧闹的高二文班。

他们孰不知,今晚的节目并不是单纯的自然现象。一场颠覆命运的故事即将展开序幕!